lie vs truth

please tell me another story/tell me a fairy tail that ends in a dream scenario/whisper a lulaby of lies to pacifiy my disbelief/i'm possesed by the illuion of truth/I know it to be a lie, but a lie i rather live because it's not like I've been the the greatest advocate of truthfulness/you see the deceit in me as well/some of the things we coveit most in this world were based on lies/but the diligent found the truth on their own/and the truth destroys worlds that were built on a foundation of lie's, so when you think about it ignorance truly is bliss/But i rather know then not, and I can decide for myself if the illuion is better then the reality/if I accept the illuion then I spend my days selling myself the lie's/so in essence i'm more of a liar then you are/if I accept the reality of truth then lie's have no room in my world, you have no room in my world/I know what is a lie and I know what to be true/I don't know if I can live in the lie's or except the harsh truth/so present a lie or truth to me and i'll make my decision  from there/in that case ignorance is not bliss.     thanks for the motivation

rule the night/not tonight

I don't sleep like you do. in fact I don't sleep at all. My eye's must like to rebel into darkness. I seem to be more comfortable at night. nocturnal is my approach as I press the city's night life. my eye's rejoice in the city light's. overwhelmed they become as they process the artificial. My eye's and my eyelids fight for power  because my eye's refuse to be covered. One moment will not be missed. I see the world for what it is at night. I see the conservative become the liberal in the blink of an eye.the dark side of your nature takes hold.....Yeah I rule the night on most occasions. Not tonight. NOPE. Tonight my eye's tell me a different story. They tell me how they would like for me to shut the hell up and let my eye lids win. My eyes have been in focus since yesterday afternoon. I put them through so much.they've seen so much. I have done everything that the day would permit. now they crave sleep. I'm sorry guys. I don't mean to be mean, but you can not rest. we still have so far to go. Some how I don't think they are gonna agree. yeah I usually rule the night. NOT TONIGHT. Fu*k this, I'm going to sleep lol.        thanks for the motivation.

tonight we make love

I look at you intensly, but with a gentle intent/tonight we make love until both our bodies are spent/the light from the candles give this room a certain glow/the fire makes its presants known, as it dances atop the candle wick's/the hot wax melt's onto the rose pettles placed around this space/creating the perfect aroma/you stand in the doorway waiting to be greeted by me/I walk torwards you with an energetic patience/"welcome home my queen, I have awaited your arrival"/"It's wonderful to be home my king, I have missed you so"/I sweep you off your feet and cradle you in my arm's as I carry you torwards the bed/as I hold you I can tell that you feel safe in my arm's/I can tell that you want this moment as much as I do/I place you every so gently apon our satin sheets/I take a step back just to look at you/damn I'm in awe of you/theres nothing in this world that rivals your beauty/theres no place I'd rather be then here with you/this is more then just love making, this is love/the antisipation grows in us both/you gesture for me to come to you/I do not hesitate/our lips are on a collision course/the closer we get the more the energy grows/I tease you and pull away/you look at me with frustration and grab the back of my neck, pulling me towards you/our lips finally meet/upon contact I can feel this uncontrolable energy coursing throughout my entire body/every single cell and mitochondria is affected/I never felt more alive/the passion brings me closer to you, and you to me/I begin to kiss your neck/you react by busying your hands on my streamline back/I kiss your spots to make you lose your inhibitions, your moans become more intense/I will not rest until I have explored every inch of you with my lips/I can not rest until I have traced your body's outline with my tongue/ you even taste beautiful/I am focused on the task at hand, but I still find a moment to be amazed at how stunning you are bathed in candle light/Locked in this embrace I cant stop myself from breathing harder/I cant stop my heart from beating faster/I can't stop my impulse's/I have lost control/I am lost in this moment/I find my way back to you by following the sound of your voice/you whisper "take me" but it's not enough/I want you to tell me with conviction/your whisper becomes more audible "take me"/I want more, I will bring the fire out of you/I will set free your passion/I tell you that i'm not convinced that you want this/you push me away, breaking our embrace/ I am shocked, but I see why/you look back at me from this position and tell me with such force "BOY! BETTER STOP PLAYING AND TAKE ME NOW."/That is what I was looking for, I place my hands around your slender waist, with both my thumbs in the small of your back/such a site to see/I position myself to............


I found myself on the c train. the eyes of everyone on that train were fixed on me. I was sweating and my heart was pounding. I can't believe this was a dream, It felt so real. I situated my self in the seat and refocused my attention to my ipod. I was not embarrassed by the eyes of people staring at me. All I could do was smile and laugh, because I know that tonight we make love.....I cant wait to get home.    thanks for the motivation.

free

please! I'm begging you. LET ME GO! I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to be here with you. don't tell me you need me, please leave me. your holding me back. your holding me. holding my heart. you have my heart. you love me? love...me? how can this be love? this is not love. you lie to me. YOU LIE TO ME! DON'T TOUCH ME. don't you ever touch me again. i...i can't think.....its YOU. your doing this to me. stop....stop please. STOP IT NOW. i see what your doing. you want to confuse me. I know this isn't real. you make me see Lie's. stop distorting the truth. If you really love me then let me leave. let me go. free my heart from the grasp you have on it. free my soul. WHY CAN'T YOU FREE ME? I've done all that you asked of me. I've done you bidding for far to long. because of you I have destroyed all that I have built. Because of you I have hurt all that I have loved, and all that have loved me. your love is killing me. I can not grow as a person with you. you hinder me. you are but a desolate prison and I'll remain prisoner no longer. I will fight to shake loose of you. with everything I am I will fight to free myself of you. I will fight to send you back to the fiery pits of hell from which you were conceived. I have been fooled by your clever rouse for age's. now I see. I see that which is clear. YOU ARE HATE! I was tricked into believing that you were all there was. Never experiencing love how could I know? I know now. I know of love. I see it in the people. I see it in there eyes when they look at each other. their love is so evident I can feel it. it's warm and so inviting. a stark contrast to what you make me feel. Hatred, we are no longer an item. we are no longer in leauge. I have found the love in this world. I have found freedom from you.   Thanks for the motivation.

going hard on a monday

Here we go again/going hard on a Monday/my blackberry in hand/checked my emails, I'm the man/got Starbucks in hand/of chei lattes, I'm a fan/got confidence on demand/but be clear and understand/I haven't slept in two days/working on the task at hand/they tell me that this is what it takes to make it/to bring yourself near death and survive/well I am the first person account on the news at eleven, because I'm here to tell the story my brethren/my head still hurts from all the caffeine I ingested/eyes sensitive to the light, because of going from day to night/then back into day light/i keep them open with all my might/just eight hours more, then I can rest these eyes tonight/but right now I gotta fight/like tina turner when SHE beat ike/I fighting for a reason, so a little pain is alright/so you might just be starting/but understand i haven't stopped/while you sleep/ i'm in the lab/with a beaker glass/ trying to get things to pop/i guess i want it now more then i ever did/it's crippling somedays/but i'm strong enough to make it back and go hard on yet another monday. thanks for the motivation.

no care to spare

I'm sorry my dear but I have no care to spare/I reach inside my pocket but there is no care there/go to forest of feeling and find a care bear/maybe care can be found in the forest over there/maybe care can be found inside a dragons Lair/it's obvious your looking for care over here but i'm sorry my dear I have no care to spare/look under the bed, see if care is hiding under there/maybe you'll walk in a room and care will be sitting in a chair, sippin beer, reading books by the Bernstein bears, while wearing nike airs and putting on Aries/but I don't care, cause where ever care is I'm not there/you can do it like "where's waldo?" instead it can be like "where's care?"/he can where a red and white shirt, with a pair of red and white nike airs/but i don't care, cause where ever care is I'm not there/I heard you have a new boy friend, and I'm like yeah? well i don't care, and where ever care is I'm not there/plus I got a new girlfriend, and dog look at her rear/look at her face/ she's mad cute, and her hair's down to here/and I hope she don't think because i wrote this here, that i care/cause i don't care, and where ever care is I'm not there/but wait! the fact that I wrote this is weird/because if I didn't care, then I wouldn't have wrote this here/Great, now she got me thinking bout the time that we shared/ she used to sing to me, while I run my fingers through her hair/and some times i miss her yeah/but I don't care/she tried to leave the relationship when there was trouble in the air/said she need a break from me and ran off some where/I felt abandon and scared/can you imagine my fear?/to ride in a two seater with out the passenger there/seat belt, airbags, breaks all disappeared/the car crashed, I shot out the dash and flew in the air/yeah that's enough to make this back man not care, but there's more to the story so just listen here/you disappeared/ our relation ship course kinda veered/then out of the blue you tell me your pregnant and I should smile and cheer/I'm like, oh your pregnant, yeah?/well why did you leave and then tell me, ain't that kinda weird?/aww man, it's just as I feared/she did something she shouldn't have so now she's desperate and scared/she came back, and I'm like boom, pregnancy test, here. use this. the story's bottom we can get to here/she lied/I cried/I kinda died inside/I kicked her right out of my house and made her sleep in her ride/she came back, I came outside and hopped in the ride/that's when we had a conversation about the truth inside/I learned alot about that woman with no guilt to spare/she made it easy for this black man to have no care/

I'm sorry my dude, but i have no care to spare/the care I could spare evaporated in thin air/I had care in my waves, but i brushed it out my hair/come to my drive thru and order a quarter pound of care/and when you get to the register I'm like we fresh out of care/you can look at me sad, with them crocodile tears/tell me your getting evicted, and deep down your scared/but when I see you in person you have new pradas there?/when you get evicted, hold up a sign that Say's will work for care/because I don't care, and where ever care is i'm not there/a black man with ambition and drive is something to fear/and if you don't have either, you should get from around here/get inspired, and find a reason that will make me care/then I will care/and when ever you need me, I'll be right there. thanks for the motivation.

i'll never forget you shaquana, r.i.p

I parted ways with the world I knew. onward to a foreign land called stroudsburg Pennsylvania. i didn't know where it was, let alone anyone that lived there. do you know your brother was the first person i met? I remember walking into that classroom, and dennis and Sean Samuel's was there. dennis and sean was cracking mad jokes , and i was acting like i didn't want to laugh. but we all know how funny sean was. we all ice grilled each other for like 15 minutes until Dennis asked me if I play basketball. the rest is history. damn shaquana that seems like yesterday. seem like yesterday you was calling my name out like only you could in the hallway by the shop class, where we all would chill at the end of the day. how you and liz and all the ladies would come to the basketball games to watch us ball out. we thought we were stars at the Friday night parties after the basketball or football games. I remember how we would all jump in eugene newsomes green Pontiac aka the green machine, and chill in walmart like it was a club. dennis, me, and Eugene aka DHE. D-mac, Hollywood, and eugenus. my brothers. not a day went by that i wasn't chillin at your house, hanging with gene and d, flirting with you while kyle burrel was trying to mac. damn that was funny lol. everyone would come to my house since i lived in town and we would all chill and bug out, because i always had free crib. this hurts. when I got the news I didn't believe it. how could you be gone? how could you leave us? I remember when I would go to church with you guys, Dari and George. d was playing the drums and you would sing. and you could blow too. this was the last thing i thought i would be writing. a poem in the memory of you. damn this hurts. I cried when I got home. I just broke down. they don't understand that we were family. d and Eugene were my brothers and you was my sister. I didn't get the chance to say thank you. thank you for being my friend. thank you for the happy memories. you guys had a profound affect on my life. stroudsburg really changed me for the better and you played a part in that. shaquana I miss you already. you left us way to soon. But If i have anything to say about it I want my kids to know yours. you left behind a son and i hope i can tell him stories of how great his mom was. the memories we made in stroudsburg. we all went our separate ways in life. we weren't as close as we was in stroudsburg. that's my fault. I gotta go on with life knowing that we had a falling out for no reason, and now your gone. now your gone. in your name i will aways remember stroudsburg. I will always remember you. my friend, shaquana. r.i.p