love her/hate her

the reasons that I loved her, are now the reasons that I hate her. She made me need her, crave her, want her,  now I find it impossible to get her out of my system. I hate her. the feeling just won't leave, the love still breeds. Now that just breeds contempt because I can not be freed. The food she used to make for me are just painful reminders of we. I hunger for more then just dishes you prepared, but I can not eat. Now the reasons I loved you, Are the reasons I hate you. You made so hard to forget you, Your face permanently burned in the center of my memory. She's my recurring nightmare. Taunting me in my dream state, with visions, forcing me to relive the past, DAMN I HATE YOU! Painful memories I'm holding on to. I want to let them go but their memories of you. So I hold them close because it's all I have. This just makes me hate you even more. The more I hate you, the more it becomes clear that I still love you. I wish I didn't but the emotion is still there. It's still prevalent, Still dominate, Still remains. I still see you, I still feel you. It drives me insane. The reasons I loved you, are now the reasons I hate you. I hate that I still love you. I hate you for leaving me. I hate you for breaking my heart. Damn I hate her because I love her even more.