we lost each other

I ache for what my grandparents have. 56 years on this earth, together. their trials and tribulations were documented just like everybody Else's. he was an alcoholic. she gambled away the rent money. Two individuals with crippling flaws. both made in gods image, but perfect they could never be. I think about how different their lives would be if they never met. would my grandfather have had the strength to overcome his descent into alcoholism? would my grandmother have been able to curtail the overpowering urge to gamble? one can only guess. but this is not about how they would have been apart, but rather what they achieved together. both overcoming obsticals for the greater good of their relationship. 56 years is a long time to love someone. my generation doesn't understand what it takes to make a relationship work for such a long time. we cant make it past the the honeymoon stage which is about 3 months. after 3 months flaws rise to the surface and breakup is emanate. we are the microwave generation. everything is fast pace, i need it now, put no effort into it generation. that has carried over to our relationships. If a man does not have everything then he is not acceptable to that woman. she does not see him as equal. she does not see him as a man. If a woman has more then a man then that man can not accept the strength of that woman. emasculated he feels. why is it a problem if a woman makes more then a man? did woman not fight for the right to be equal? well then be equal if not better. if your man does not make as much as you then help him make more. help him to realize his potential. If his woman does not believe in him then who will? if a woman makes more the a man then a man should not feel less then a man. he should be a real man and embrace her strength. Strength should be valued in the companion that stands next to you. I believe my grandparents have more strength then i can possibly imagine. love and strength allowed them to fight off their demons while holding on to and supporting each other along the way. If one couldn't then the other did. if she spent the rent money gambling, then he soldered up his own to keep a roof over his family's head. why? because love and sacrifice allows you to unconditionally love a person.

~my love is gold~

I will wrap you in my servitude and attentiveness/I study that which brings glee to thee/you walk the earth with the grace of a goddess, and when you enter our kingdom you will be greeted as such/I will kneel at the feet of perfection/cradling such a delicate appendage with the care of a new born child/sout and earthly gravels will be washed away with milk and honey, as I massage the skin of an angel/I can not offer the spoils of the world/but your presence inspires me to do so/I offer my affection, my attentiveness. myself/I will show you how I feel/I will show you what you are worth/until i can provide the spoils of the world, my love is gold.